Thursday, November 6, 2008

what happened??

Ryte now im lying on my bed..im supposedly on my desk at this time..study for this Thursday paper ..QMT which is statistic..boring sgt kot..byk nk kne hafal step..so like xde mood nk blaja and plus suddenly tadi, 12 sumting am my mom call..cam xcaye..slalu tyme2 camtu, she might be on her bed, siap2 nk tdo or else,dah start dreaming pon..so, i just thinking that this must be an important call..tp my mom mcm biase je..she just asking normal question.. about my life..my exam last Thursday, my preparation for exam, duet ckop or x, batok dah baek, n mcm2 soalan biase yg dye slalu tanye..n bile cam dah nk ltak, tbe2 dye kuarkan one statement..

Mummy : i have story to tell u..

(see..da dpt agak dah..ni msti ade sumting..if x, my mom xkan call tgh2 mlm bute camni..but she said that she would tell me once i’ve finished my exam..mcm da dpt agak pe yg dye nk citer sbnanye..)
Me : illi rase mcm da tau je..

Mummy : pe yg illi tau?

Me : pasal ayah ek??hmm..

She like so surprise that i can read her mind..

Mummy : mcm mane illi tau?

Me : i’ve the feeling..

Actually, mase blk raye aritu, da prasan sgt prangai ayh laen..bile ckp fon je, msti nk kuar umh..b4 dis xpnh lak camtu..tp smue mcm diam je la..wat xtau..rupenye, ayah ade mcm contact pompuan laen..tu sbnanye pe yg my mom nk citer..my mom tau bile nenek tibe2 dtg umh, n tanye adek..mane ayah?ayh pg2 ag da kuar..rupenye, nenek jmpe kete sbijik cam kete ayh kat pasar dahlia n just nmpk no plat 800..hruf dpn xprasan..tp nenek sgt confident tu kete ayah..dye nmpk sblh driver tu ade pomp duduk..tros nenek bg tau my mom..tp cam my mom defend ayh dpn nenek..mayb tu org laen kot..mmg 800 same,tp huruf dpn tu laen..pastu nenek pon cam dyam je la..

At the same tyme,my mom cam rase sumting wrong..dye snyap2 tgok hp ayah mlm2..n ade 1 no minah ni..my mom tros call n mmg btol ayh ngah bkawan ngan dye..that woman umur 26(same umur ngan my eldest bro)..jande..damn..dorg knl sbb ayh slalu maen golf kat RJCC n she is a waitress there..can’t u imagine?dahla beza ngan my dad 30years.cam nk kikis sungguh duet my dad..serious shit trok gell minah ni..cam xde lelaki laen dlm dunia..

Ana my youngest systa bg tau my mom,ade 1 tyme ayh amek dye from tusyen n tros bwk g XTRA(hypermarket)..my dad suruh ana jln2 kat dlm n bg tau ayh nk btolkan hp..bile da nk blk tu,ana nmpk ayah ltak plastic bag kasut pompuan kat boot blkg kete..u guess what??that shoe is for minah xsdar diri tu..1day ag,kat angsana ayh mintak ana bacekan color mascara..dye nk colour itam..utk minah tu jgak..(sigh..)

My mom cite ag,pe smue yg my mom msg minah tu,minah tu foward kat ayh..ade ke ptot..my mom soh dye jgn kaco ag..n dye kate bile dye mintak putus ngan ayh, ayh nanges..hmm..cam xcaye..knl baru 4 months tp dah cm tu..my mom mmg soh ayh explain btol2..n ayh mengaku la buat smue tu..ayh cam dah menyesal, family comes first..dye mintak maaf sgt2 kat my mom..mcm2 hal..syan my mom..even dye xnanges mase dye cite tu, but i know deep down her heart,seriously saket sgt..i can feel the same thing..hati pompuan..bile org yg kite trust,betray kite,rase mcm da xley caye ag that person..hmm..

My mom cume ckp that she just want sumone to listen n support her..she really hope that pe yg dye cite smue ni,xeffect my studies..n i just say that,she can talk to me whenever she want and i can be a good listener..i know she really tough to go tru all dis things..yes..i really know her..even susah mcm ne pon,dye akn try hadapi..i just hope n pray,”ya ALLAH,berikanlah mak aku kekuatan n ketabahan hati..smoga keluarga ku dijauhkn dr sgala malapetaka..AMIN.”

I really love my family..hope smuenye akn bertambah baik dgn cpt..
Ok illi..u must work hard for ur exam..just focus..jgn pk bende laen ag..
Really need ‘him’ rite now..tyme2 byk prob,tnsion..nk luah kat dye..i miss all his advice..but i don’t think so he want to think about me anymore..=(
Ok..i must go to sleep ryte now..cam da lewat..esok kne blaja sungguh2..

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